Tuesday 2 April 2013

It's four in the morning and I need to sleep.

I have no idea what to write. I'm meant to be writing a article about The European Union and Britain. Instead I'm writing this, yet that article is very important.

I am meant to be a logical and rational person who is capable of being an adult that is responsible. Tapped Out is looking really attractive right now.

I never really had a childhood, because I was too busy trying to be the responsible adult, that kid who is popped out of his mothers womb and then puts on a suit and goes to work. I want to have fun and be crazy for once in my dammed life, yet the responsible voice in my brain says "Thomas, you are a responsible child."

There's my problem, I'm not a child any more.

I know what I want, I want to make a life for myself that fills my heart with content and joy, by that I don't mean having a tonne of money to buy whatever I want, I mean the one where I can have an adventure, go do those things that filled my childhood dreams when lying on the top bunk, (yep, I got it.)

Then responsible me comes in and says

"you must not do that, you have to set an example for the rest of the children"  

Really, this is what some of the children are doing, one is currently touring the globe, going where their heart desires. Another is a part time model, part time student ambassador and here's the killer, this person performed at the closing ceremony at the London 2012 Olympics.

I'm meant to be that successful dude who you met in school, remember for the rest of your life, got pushed around a bit but ends up with a Ferrari by the time he is twenty-five. I don't think I have a lot to show for it

Yes, I know I have awesome job, (I'm not complaining.) But I want to change the world, right now, the question is, How am I going to do that?    

8 comments:

  1. We have some similarities. I feel the same way. Almost like "What's next?"

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    1. That's it, I'm so used to having a plan and knowing what comes next. Now I'm not in control, and I have no idea where I'm going.

      I just hope that I'm going somewhere good.

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  2. I once said "I want to be a writer" and someone replied "Okay - what do you want to say?"(in my writing that is) So - you said you want to change the world - i was wondering "in what way?" and "how?"

    PS. Saw your post on google in the blogging community...

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    1. I don't know. I haven't got foggiest idea how I'm going to change the world, or in what way.

      I do journalism because it feels like the right thing to do, but I do it from my living room. I suppose I need to get out there.

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  3. You are changing to world a little at a time just by sharing your thoughts.

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    1. That is the best sentence that I have ever read.

      I set up this blog as a a place to put my thoughts and feelings, I suppose that because someone has taken on bored what I have have wrote, the world is slightly different, in the smallest way.

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  4. I agree with Lacey about the sharing. Good to get things off your chest and get some feedback. From my vantage point, you ARE on track; figuring things out slowly and deeply, trying stuff, making choices, keeping an open heart. Life is a great adventure and a work in-progress.

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    1. Is this a case of, you can see what I can't see?

      It is great to get some feedback on what I'm think, it really does help.

      I suppose that I don't want my adventure to be rubbish.

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